It's always good to hear positive reinforcement that all is continuing to be well and we're both super healthy; although I did remark "then why do I feel so blah and bad?". My Dr. just laughed and replied "because you're 36 weeks pregnant and have been doing this for almost 9 months and you're ready to have a baby!"
Oh, yeah.
I was filling out a new calender yesterday, looking through my old planner to transfer birthdays and important dates.....and was reminded, by red ink pen, when this all began. It's hard to believe it's been 9 months, and flipping through my old calender gave me great visual perspective. I know that in those first few weeks and early months after her birth, I will need constant reminders to keep perspective. Perspective to take one day at a time, and at the same time not get too frazzled, frustrated or dissapointed when one day doesn't go as planned or how I anticipated.
I've often struggled with giving myself reasonable time and space to process changes and circumstances, often pushing myself to "just do it" or "get over it". I know giving birth and becoming a mom is one of the biggest changes I'll ever make (a bit of an understatement), so I know now, more than ever, I need to extend the same grace to myself that I hope others will as I sift through emotions and questions and elation and worry.
From now on it's perspective, grace-filled, one day at a time.
Remind me in a month :-)
1 comment:
Yes, give yourself grace. It will be so good for you to learn, and for Willow to know about her mother- which she may in turn extend to herself. Rest easy Stephania. I pray you will breathe deeply this anticipation, walk softly upon doubt and worry, and know you have a perfectly healthy baby on the way. How amazing. We are so thankful you and Willow are healthy- perfect-o!.
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